Forsaken
My name is Abaddon, and I am Forsaken. To those that don’t know me very well, I am 26 years old and I am the father of 2 children, both of which I haven’t seen for the latter part of 2 years now. To all of the feminists out there, I current owe 0.00$ in “child support”. In a Matriarchy, the MONEY gets paid first I suppose, no matter what the cost in human suffering, or the reduction of an individuals rights, or faith in Humanity. I owe nothing to the Matriarchy nor will I ever, which I suppose is the goal. To reduce a Man into slavery in his prime years of “production” while “supporting” his “children”, is the purpose of this idiotic scheme. I am correct am I not you useful idiots?
This isn’t the point of my blog. I am a human, and as a human I know that there are dreams and then there’s the reality that we all try to escape from in some way. I choose alcohol, some choose video games, some escape with books(I do as well) while others simply try to rationalize why they are the way they are. I am sure there are many other ways to do so however I don’t have the time to list them.
I have a little brother, and he and I are very similar yet completely different. However we work together at the same company. My brother has 2 children as well, with his wife. I dont begrudge them anything, however it struck me today. The EUREKA if you will! It has struck me before, however today is the day for writing I suppose. To get to the proverbial meat of the matter, I watched my little brother after we got off of a grueling day of work (9-10 hrs of moving furniture, with no lunch), jump out of the car and give his youngest son a huge hug and kiss. I love my Nephews, for they are of my line, and I would have done the same, however that in my view that is unseemly, I merely remained in the background and made sure they weren’t doing things like messing with fires, and other things. In ending making sure they were ok. Thats my job as an Uncle.
In that moment of Space and Time, “I” a Man that has moved furniture at -50 to support his children whether they were there or not, a Man that has lived in an artic area for his ENTIRE natural life, broke down in TEARS. I finally realized, that I will NEVER be able to do that. I will NEVER be able to give MY children a hug and a kiss and tell them that I am HOME. I will NEVER see them on this side of Life.
This is coming from a Man that was a part of their Life for 5 FUCKING years! I slaved for them, I spent ALL the time that I could with them, I changed their diapers, I fed them with my money and my hand, I worked my ass to the fucking BONE for them. When that wasnt good enough, I PAID ALL MY CHILD SUPPORT BITCHES! This isnt some Maury show contestant, that danced for glory when he found out he wasnt the FATHER. I would add a great FUCK YOU to the people that say they(my children) will be back for daddy in awhile. There is nothing that will be able to replace what has been TAKEN away from me.
To all the feminists that have CREATED this situation, you have inspired the complete HATRED of a Man who has sacrificed and given more for Women than you will ever know. Your ideology has broken many Men, however I remain here, I stand alone in a place that many even refuse to live. You come to me with the standards and crowns of Broken Men, yet I stand here ALONE, and waiting for a response.
I wouldnt piss on you if you were on fire. You are the IDIOTS, that started this whole mess. DO YOU TRULY THINK YOU’RE INDEPENDENT? Try looking up the meaning of the word before you speak it?
I will meet you in the darkness, and that I think is all you deserve. To live with yourselves. What a sordid and saddening bunch of whores you are.
To the women that will speak for me, I DONT CARE, you are worthless, your word is and has been broken, and without honor you are nothing.
-Strength and Honor-
August 21st, 2007 at 2:06 pm
Abaddon, you say that “To the women that will speak for me, I DONT CARE, you are worthless, your word is and has been broken, and without honor you are nothing.”, and so perhaps you would not wish me to comment. If you wish to erase this, I respect that.
Your post truly touched me. I have (if you read some of my posts on MABTW) worked FOR men’s rights in situations such as yours in the legal field in my state, and continue to do so. I am sad to say, that because of the Feminist garbage that has infused itself into our society, stories like yours are more common than the media would portray. And, so is the pain.
Though my pain of loss of my son is VERY different from yours, I do know the loss of a child from my life and there is NO pain like it. You have every right to rage and to take the stand you have taken.
I have no answers that will solve it right away, or ever. The pain you feel will never subside as it is its own sort of death. I will commend you as one parent to another, however, on your decided to do these blogposts. Your voice, added to others, may finally be heard if we all but keep the words flowing from our hands.
Abaddon, I hope that my empathy and words and support have had SOME worth. I will, also, pass your site along to everyone I can so that they read your story and see what it is like in REAL LIFE to go through this kind of loss.
August 21st, 2007 at 2:07 pm
Abbadon, the above comment was written by Victorian Lady…it showed up as LadyLessons… that is my blogsite…sorry!
August 21st, 2007 at 4:42 pm
To Abaddon: I linked to you from MABTW as well, and perhaps you’ll attack me for posting here as well. I won’t offer any platitudes, because your pain is evident. Just know that you have two beautiful sons, and as with any divorce or forcible separation of parent from child, you will forge a relationship with your boys. It will be unique. It will be different than that of your brother with his boys. And yes, it will suck for you. But your boys will take the cue of how they remember time spent with their father from you.
If you find no value in my words, let it stand at that. They are sincere, and I’m not here for your approval. I only wanted to say that your writing is poignant.
~Z~
August 22nd, 2007 at 5:56 am
Type away ladies, I simply said that I don’t care. I understand that most people have empathy besides sociopaths. I think that a lot of Men are in my situation, due to their states vested interest in making homes fatherless.
I use alcohol to drown it out, so I don’t have to think about it at all. It is a wound that drives you insane if you let it, and it NEVER heals! Its been 2 years now and while its not the same sort of pain, its still there.
August 26th, 2007 at 7:39 pm
I showed respect for your situation. It’s shameful that you couldn’t do the same at MABTW, but found it necessary to call my story a waste of time and energy. You get what you give in this world. You may want to stop wallowing for a moment and see that you’re not the only one in pain.
August 27th, 2007 at 7:44 pm
Fair enough Zogmama, my sincerest apologies, which I will post on MABTW forthwith. However I am not wallowing, merely posting an observation.
-Strength and Honor-
August 29th, 2007 at 6:26 am
abaddonfff, I am not going to try to give you any advice - seems like you’ve probably had enough of women telling you what to do. And as you say, you are a Man, and must make your own way.
While I was reading this entry, I was thinking of a “conversation” I recently involved myself in over at Alas, a Blog (Ampersand’s blogroll). If you don’t know, he is a rather well-known male feminist. I disagreed with some of their points, and said so in a very unemotional, respectful way. In addition, I made sure they knew who I was, and even linked to my blog so they would know I’m anti-feminist/pro-men’s-rights.
The anger and venom that came back to me was shocking. What struck me about it, as opposed to what you have written, was this: You are writing of something that has actually happened, that has caused you personal pain, and that you struggle to live with every day. They write of their dissatisfaction with life in general, how women in general are “oppressed by the patriarchy”, how men view them as “walking life-support systems for pussy”. Life is so much more than their gold-plated pussies.
In short, they come across as whiny bitches living in fantasy-land, and you come across as a Man who has to live in the real world.
Kelly
August 30th, 2007 at 10:42 pm
abaddonfff, I am not going to try to give you any advice - seems like you’ve probably had enough of women telling you what to do. And as you say, you are a Man, and must make your own way.
Thank you Kellymac, I think that is the choice of all who wish to find some sort of freedom in this ever-shrinking world, that is to go your own way.
While I was reading this entry, I was thinking of a “conversation” I recently involved myself in over at Alas, a Blog (Ampersand’s blogroll). If you don’t know, he is a rather well-known male feminist. I disagreed with some of their points, and said so in a very unemotional, respectful way. In addition, I made sure they knew who I was, and even linked to my blog so they would know I’m anti-feminist/pro-men’s-rights.
I know of Hugo, and his ilk. Male feminists, are in my view rather hypocritical and self-defeating. They subscribe to an ideology that calls for their extermination. They subscribe to an ideology that reduces them to slaves. They indulge in self-hate, and live their lives hating themselves. I meet many people that are like that on a day to day basis.
The anger and venom that came back to me was shocking. What struck me about it, as opposed to what you have written, was this: You are writing of something that has actually happened, that has caused you personal pain, and that you struggle to live with every day. They write of their dissatisfaction with life in general, how women in general are “oppressed by the patriarchy”, how men view them as “walking life-support systems for pussy”. Life is so much more than their gold-plated pussies.
I wouldn’t be surprised Kellymac, like you said they are speaking about things that have never really had anything to do with their lives. They are talking out of their ass, to be quite honest. Its reeeealllly PC to be a Male Feminist, when you are in college and don’t have any kids, never had a girlfriend, or never met a whore. Its quite another to be me. Its one thing to be in college on your daddy’s or mommy’s trust fund, its quite another to be a hard-working Man all your life. The anger and venom come from their little worlds being crushed and a little light shining through, thats all. They dont like that.
-Strength and Honor-